The Healing Project

I apologize it has been so long since i have posted. College life has proven to be much busier than i had expected, but i promise to be back to you soon. I thought i would however drop in and let you know about a project i am working on that i am particularly excited about. My sister always encouraged me to write and record music, and i always came up with excuses not to. I act as though i am fearless, but i am honestly a coward. I never compete in anything i feel i cannot win. I have a terrible fear of embarassing myself and because of this fear i have missed out on many oppurtunities throughout my life. I would always rather have the excuse that i didn't try, than have to explain why i wasn't the best. So i skipped out on countless events that i could have performed because i was terrified of someone being better than me. But my sister taught me that there is nothing wrong with not being the best. The only thing God expects is for each of us to be our best individuals selves. He gives us talents for a reason and it is selfish and even SINFUL not to use them for Him and His kingdom. So a few nights ago i decided that i wanted to write a song. It seems like a very small goal, but it is something i have always wanted to be able to do. To reflect my feelings in something that i have such a passion for. So i called a friend and we sat down the next day for four hours and came up with , The Healing Project. The idea is to essentially write a song for every stage of grief, and more specifically each stage of my own story. The C.D as a whole is a journey through my healing, but a journey of healing must start from where you were broken. I hope that when this is finished, God willing, it can be a relief for many others besides just myself, but right now it has been amazing therapy for me to put all my efforts into something i have always wished i could do. I wrote my very first song the other day, and no it may not be amazing but it was a start. I was able to channel my feelings and express it in SONG and that my friends, is so powerful for me. I have decided to share the lyrics to the first song i've written below. They are not fantastic, but they are a life goal fulfilled. I will post lyrics and recordings as this project continues and any prayers towards the project would be fantastic. I love knowing i am working on something that is bigger than me. I feel like God is working through this project and i feel honored to be His servant. God bless.

*This song is about the last time i saw my sister. The last image i have of her and the final words we said to one another. Enjoy.

Rushing to be somewhere, as people often do
Walking out the door, I pause while passing through
Hands stretched over keys, across ivory and black
A mirror of our mother, when staring at her back

Memories of normal, there never was a sign
No risk of losing or spending borrowed time
Life is often beautiful and rarely ever cruel
Fading image of my sister on her piano stool

There are no words to say
There really is no way
Oh, If I only knew
But how to say “good-bye”
To 15 years of life
I’m guessing “I love you” …Will do

If i had been aware, I wouldn't have let go
I would have held on tighter, i would have let her know
You are my best friend, and my other half too
I can't imagine, any life without you

There are no words to say
There really is no way
Oh, If I only knew
But how to say “good-bye”
To 15 years of life
I’m guessing “I love you” …Will do